Adam’s Curse is a poem that reminds me of an old love. So old that I have carried it with me across space and time. It is love that has never come easy despite the irresistible pull and draw that always existed. It is love that has lived and died and resurrected itself despite ourselves, and sometimes in spite of ourselves.
To create a thing of beauty is tedious labour. Love is not fun, love is work. Hard work. And your efforts will not always bear fruit. You can continue to do, perform, show, express, give… but will you arrive at your goal? Maybe, maybe not. There are no promises, no guarantees. Have expectations and you are setting yourself up for heartbreak.
For those who can, it is best to let go and live without. For those who cannot, like me, one learns to put away the idea of a destination and wonders if it is truly possible to live the journey. Scenic routes. Short cuts. Breakdowns. Endless road, moonlight and background music. This is also a kind love. This is also a kind of life.
We sat together at one summer’s end,
That beautiful mild woman, your close friend,
And you and I, and talked of poetry.
I said, ‘A line will take us hours maybe;
Yet if it does not seem a moment’s thought,
Our stitching and unstitching has been naught.
Better go down upon your marrow-bones
And scrub a kitchen pavement, or break stones
Like an old pauper, in all kinds of weather;
For to articulate sweet sounds together
Is to work harder than all these, and yet
Be thought an idler by the noisy set
Of bankers, schoolmasters, and clergymen
The martyrs call the world.’
That beautiful mild woman for whose sake
There’s many a one shall find out all heartache
On finding that her voice is sweet and low
Replied, ‘To be born woman is to know-
Although they do not talk of it at school-
That we must labour to be beautiful.’
I said, ‘It’s certain there is no fine thing
Since Adam’s fall but needs much labouring.
There have been lovers who thought love should be
So much compounded of high courtesy
That they would sigh and quote with learned looks
Precedents out of beautiful old books;
Yet now it seems an idle trade enough.’
We sat grown quiet at the name of love;
We saw the last embers of daylight die,
And in the trembling blue-green of the sky
A moon, worn as if it had been a shell
Washed by time’s waters as they rose and fell
About the stars and broke in days and years.
I had a thought for no one’s but your ears:
That you were beautiful, and that I strove
To love you in the old high way of love;
That it had all seemed happy, and yet we’d grown
As weary-hearted as that hollow moon.
– William Butler Yeats