If there is one thing I have learned about the sense of utter desolation at the end of love, this is it: it is never about that one person. It is rarely even about anyone else. If you feel empty it is not because someone has left you. It is because you have left you.
It’s Nourooz today. Spring equinox. It heralds new beginnings. Second chances. Hundredth chances. A way to begin again no matter how many times or how badly you’ve screwed up. With all things that begin anew, there is first need to clear space by removing that which no longer serves your purpose. Clear clutter- real and […]
“Not everything is about you,” I used to say to her, indignant at her unfailing ability to make the world revolve around her as the center. And who knew it then, that in the midst of my self-preservative defense, I spoke the truth. Desire, you know, is a funny thing. You think it is all about […]
The infinite power of the Universe functions on the simple principle of cause and effect. Every action, equal and opposite reaction etc. And so it goes that what you sow, so shall you reap. What you give, comes back to you, and what you ask for you shall receive. […]
If there ever were anything like a pagan Muslim, that might have been a fair description of me and my faith. Rooted in belief, my Islam is an eccentric and many would argue, an unorthodox practice. It matters little. Faith is a matter more personal than sex or the affair you are currently having with […]
I said I would not leave, and I kept my word. My useless word is all that remains. “You left me and went your way. I thought I should mourn and grieve over my loss… For time is short. Youth wanes year after year, Spring days are fugitive, Fragile flowers die for nothing, And […]
I have a friend called Mary. She lives in Oakland and I have never met her in real life. But in small and rather miraculous ways we try to bring out the best in each other and help work out our fears, limitations, and show each other the things that are hardest to see in […]
When life gets larger than life, I become as small as I can get. It is as though I want to occupy as little of the earth as possible. Be the tiniest burden. I want to be unheard, mostly invisible (unless I need to buy a loaf of bread), and as dim as a living […]