What would you like to be?
Whenever you ask the rhetorical question of, “where do I begin?”, the answer is almost always and immediately, “at the start.” But what if you do not remember when it all started, or how? What if you cannot recall the way things began to fall apart in a way that felt as if it were […]
Nobody ever speaks of the little things. What about the little things? The mole on my neck you took for keeps; the perfect bow of your lips I called dibs on? Who do those parts of us belong to now? Is it possible to give away something twice? Would I even want to? With you […]
Lead me to the Arjuna in me. Lead me to the warrior within. Remind me, divine charioteer, why I am here, and why I am fighting the one I love. Remind me again, why there is no other path left to take. Remind me of the real war: the one we spar with our own […]
Everything I am doing says I love you. I hope you’re reading this. I hope you hear it between your ears. I hope you know. Because I know if you did you’d never let me know.
Twenty-four hours. I have sailed on a raft of emptiness through a vacuum consisting of measured time that swung like a pendulum between endlessness and eternity. I’ve never been to the bottom of the ocean but in my mind I go often. The cool stillness, the deep dark black of the blue. The soundless silence. That ocean is inside me as much as I am inside of it. Here, there are no tears and no sound of crying. Here there is just saltwater and where the ghostly moans of despair go to die.
Look. When someone decides they do not want to love you anymore there is nothing you can do to change it. So stop. I have learned the hard and slow way over time that it is less and less about you. It is about how they choose to feel. Months pass and you really don’t […]