21 days of healing – part-broken, part-whole

Whenever you ask the rhetorical question of, “where do I begin?”, the answer is almost always and immediately, “at the start.” But what if you do not remember when it all started, or how? What if you cannot recall the way things began to fall apart in a way that felt as if it were…

Gaps

Nobody ever speaks of the little things. What about the little things? The mole on my neck you took for keeps; the perfect bow of your lips I called dibs on? Who do those parts of us belong to now? Is it possible to give away something twice? Would I even want to? With you…

Parthasarthy

Lead me to the Arjuna in me. Lead me to the warrior within. Remind me, divine charioteer, why I am here, and why I am fighting the one I love. Remind me again, why there is no other path left to take. Remind me of the real war: the one we spar with our own…

Impasse

Everything I am doing says I love you. I hope you’re reading this. I hope you hear it between your ears. I hope you know. Because I know if you did you’d never let me know.

The bottom of less

Twenty-four hours. I have sailed on a raft of emptiness through a vacuum consisting of measured time that swung like a pendulum between endlessness and eternity. I’ve never been to the bottom of the ocean but in my mind I go often. The cool stillness, the deep dark black of the blue. The soundless silence….

Less

Look. When someone decides they do not want to love you anymore there is nothing you can do to change it. So stop. I have learned the hard and slow way over time that it is less and less about you. It is about how they choose to feel. Months pass and you really don’t…

Bloodletting

You love like a man. Which is to say, cautiously, and with measured words. Or none. No words. You send me voice notes of your breathing or the precious few seconds as you climax taking my name with you. But to speak of love? You prefer not to. There is lust, there is chemistry, there…

Ask

The infinite power of the Universe functions on the simple principle of cause and effect. Every action, equal and opposite reaction etc. And so it goes that what you sow, so shall you reap. What you give, comes back to you, and what you ask for you shall receive. …

Almost

Twenty-one days to make or break a habit, they say. Or it’s written. Either way, that’s what I hear. Twenty-one days is an almost myth. It took twenty-one seconds for you to open a door and punch your way inside my chest. Twenty-one is an almost lie. It took twenty-one hours for me to know…