Two Thousand and Six



What did you do in 2006 that you’ve never done before?
Looked away from love and towards life.

Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. But I can’t think of them as dead. I remember them as though they were still alive.
Each time someone talks about them in the past tense, I still don’t get it.

What you would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
My answer remains the same from last year- peace. I have lacked it my entire life. I still seek it.
Even more desperately. Everywhere.

What date from 2006 will remain etched in your memory
and why?
Me (11/22/2006 4:52:22 PM): “we should try and not fall in love with each other”

We fell in love with each other.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Understanding and accepting that sex did not mean love and love did not have to mean sex.
And that I needed NEITHER to feel complete and loved.

What was your biggest failure?
Revisiting some parts and persons of my past.
Don’t EVER go back there. Ever.

On a material level what was the best thing you bought in 2006?
My freedom. (I kicked out my flat mate and paid his part of the whopping deposit.)

Where did most of your money go?
On things for my home.

What song will always remind you of 2006?
I will never remember.
The eighties are long gone and with them these kind of recollections.

Compared to this time last year are you happier or sadder?
Happier than this time last year, yes.
But I do not think I will ever be happy in the simplest, most uncomplicated sense of the word.

Thinner or Fatter?
Neither. But I am working on it. Getting thinner that is.

Older or Wiser?
The first is inevitable, the second is consequential.

Richer or Poorer?
My bank balance has lost its balance and crashed.
I am sure I live on the poverty line and often wonder if this is what penury feels like.
But no, I’m not poor. Far from it.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Exercised. And written.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Been so disrespectful and reckless with money.

What was your favorite TV program of 2006?
The L Word.

Who pissed you off in 2006?
My ex flat mates. And how for fuck’s sake.


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