Your gentle words bring me to tears too often. what can I say to you? That I look everywhere for hope and find none. Then stop looking and find it. And then the times I wonder if I should deign to hope again at all.

 

So many disappointments. So much lost hope. So much loss lost. I don’t know if I am strong enough yet to want to hope but its wonderful to know there is that…

 

You know, she used to say those words all the time- ‘there is that’… Oh God, some things are just impossible to leave behind.